I've been hanging on for a good long while now and I'm so tired/burnt out from it all. Sometimes, the idea of letting go appeals to me, merely due to the pain ending as a consequence. But, the pain I'd leave behind as a result of doing that is one of the main reasons I'm still here, despite being totally burnt out (physically and mentally). My family would irrecoverably shatter if I killed myself. So, my family is the main reason I'm still alive, but not really in the way that you'd think...