shredder1
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Lovely to see you back Mr Tech, you`ve been missed mate.
Lovely to see you back Mr Tech, you`ve been missed mate.
507021, sounds like you've been a busy lad! Glad you're enjoying the blog posts, even though they're generally written for norms who I'm trying to inspire to get out there and see the world.
Obviously we still keep in touch via Facebook J however! Don't beat yourself up for enjoying a rail journey as if it's a weakness though. You can still enjoy it without taking it to the nth degree logging and recording every bit of it.
I've never done it and rarely go out on the trains for the sake of it (though I make a hell of a lot of leisure journeys!). I do however enjoy my train rides to and from different towns and cities to do pubs (I write this from the comfy end of an IC225 set on the East Coast near Retford).
You have a habit of flogging yourself far too much for perceived weakness when you've already achieved a hell of a lot - give yourself a break and keep enjoying the fruits of your success![]()
Good to here from you Tech. Just keep doing what you want to do. Hope you enjoyed Tallinn and also Finland. Did you visit Helsinki from Tallinn? That's what I did. Also did you visit a pub called Hell Hunt in Tallinn? One of my favourite pubs in the world, despite its name it means the gentle wolf or hound I believe. Brilliant name for a pub for someone like me to visit being a metal head.A very good evening (or morning, afternoon or any other time you're reading this) to you all!
Yes I know you're all probably fainting in shock because I'm posting on the forum for the first time in months. I think my last post on this thread in May 2018 was my last one overall on the forum. I have been reading trip reports quite a bit though, both those I have subscribed to as well as a few new arrivals on the scene. I was going to post on here early this morning, but put the phone on charge and by the time it was ready to be used again I was instead ready to hit the hay.
I've been in a rather reflective mood for the last 30 or so hours, which admittedly has not been helped by re-reading some of my old trip reports! It's been some time since my last update, so let's have a bit of a catch-up starting with a rather large piece of news from the summer:
I believe it was back in June 2018 that I decided a need to cut ties with my past and the obsession with the railway had to happen. So my moves book, atlases, Trackmaps books, my spotting books and no doubt other stuff all went into the recycling bin. I kept my A5 size notebook though, despite it having some bashing notes in it, as it also includes other stuff that I wanted to keep. I don't generally use that notebook now mind, but there's writings from February 2018 which I just can't get rid of. I really should, to try and fully get over an event that happened in Q1 2018, but I just can't bring myself to bin those yet.
The other big news from the summer was the eventual completion of my excess mass shredding. It took just under 7 months to shred 5 stone, and as I type this I really need to get to work on re-eliminating the excess fats that have accumulated since then.
My 7-phase 2018 Grand Plan has ground to a halt too, as while I left my supermarket job back in August 2018 in an effort to move onto bigger things that job didn't work out. I then, with some help, got another new job but that really didn't work out either. So recently I went back to my supermarket job, just doing so on night shifts instead now. I was hoping to never return to retail but, with the confidence to meet new people and start something new shot to pieces, it was that or nothing. So while it's not ideal, until I can get finances back under control it will just have to do!
The other phases of the Grand Plan have been put on hold too, as I just don't have the confidence to even try completing them now. There are other circumstances too, but as things stand I don't think I'll ever successfully complete the objectives. A shame as I had started learning to drive again and, for a while, I had made good progress with the other two missions too. Following my Cyprus adventure in July 2018 I had committed to under-going a 'full body MOT' as a friend put it. Which frustratingly I have not managed to do, I started it all but right now I can't be bothered to complete it.
I've still been going hard at it with my world exploration trips though, 2018 having seen me visit Spain, Canada, Cyprus, Estonia and Finland. I'm aiming to complete the year's collection on my Wordpress blog in a bit, now I've copy-pasted the Spanish trip report from this thread, but the rest of them are already on techsworldfrenzy.wordpress.com and I should add right now that while I have kept a similar style to my reports here, the content has had a bit of a re-style. Very different to the content of my reports on this forum!
I'm also making plans for 2019, although as you can imagine funds are really not there at this time to book anything. Some very major plans have already had a lot of research for them done, and it just frustrates me that I can't book any of it yet. I don't think I need to tell anyone (except for new arrivals to this area) to keep following my #TPPMode and #TechsWorldFrenzy hashtags on Twitter! Which leads nicely into mentioning I'm on Instagram too these days, and I can be found as juliano_travels on there. I will keep my Flickr account (43002) going though, and hopefully in the next week I'll actually caption my photos from Tallinn and Estonia so I can make them public. My Instagram page does have some highlights on there already, with the intention to share highlights as the trips happen on Instagram as well as Twitter. My goal though is to share at least a few photos exclusively on Twitter and a few others exclusively on Instagram, with full collections on Flickr.
So that's the bulk of the news over the last 5 months, however one last bit must be addressed:
There have been a fair few times where I've wanted to return to the railway, to my old self. Whenever I try to do so though, I just can't do it! I stopped logging any journeys except for flights for a good while, and I tried again to note my moves more recently to see if that made any difference. I did have a rather ride from Hereford to Shrewsbury about a month ago, and for that brief period I thought I could do it, that Lord Quest was back. I tested the theory again the next day too, with a trip to Runway Aviation Park near Manchester Airport. It couldn't be done, by the time I had a technical issue at Pumpkin Crewe that afternoon I found the bug hadn't returned and that Juliano was still alive and well. That evening I did find, after several beers, myself bored on a leap aboard a 390 back to Crewe scribbling down the recent moves. I even paid attention to 68024 at Crewe on my way home, but not even that got me returning to the scene. So that begs the question to be asked:
Given the current situation, would I consider returning to the scene? Well yesterday I tested this theory once again, and while my moves were noted and my official farewell to the HST was made, I would rather stay a fan of the aviation scene instead. Yes I've gone back to being somewhat nerdy, but not to the point it's taken over my entire life. I have it and a social life in a fairly reasonable balance these days, so I'm very pleased with that. The question no doubt still on the lips of some of you though, which I think I've answered already:
Do I regret binning my books? No!
It's been 15 years this month since the obsession with the railway was started with a very claggy HST leaving Swansea, way back in 2003. I did get slightly emotional saying farewell to the HST yesterday morning, after all without I wouldn't have done all the stuff I have achieved. Even so, real life moves on and I've moved onto other things too!
Will I ever return, even in many years' time? Who knows, but I don't see happening. Aviation and exploring the world is my main focus these days!
Great to see you back Tech, miss your regular postings though mate, the ferry to Helsinki from Tallin is good isn't it?Lord Goon of the Spoons, I burst out laughing reading that and every so often when reviewing my planespotting book (I guess the number collecting thing never fully goes away!) I see some shaky underlining and always remember your horror when I did that on our trip on the Metro that once! Gosh that must be a fair while ago now, 2017's ALR possibly, since we last met?
Thank you all for taking the time to comment, it was nice to read such a vast amount of well-wishing etc. On the subject of binning books, I do still have a massive collection of notebooks, photos, Mini DV tapes, even a couple of 8mm camcorder tapes, and other railway stuff at my Mum's house. Without a doubt the notebooks will probably never be binned, they always will be a reminder of my past.
It might be a fair while ago now, but I still even now know which two 166s I never got. Weird how I remember those two, and that I still recall 150275 as being a requirement. Same for Blackpool Tram 006, never saw or travelled on it. Most stuff I don't immediately recall, but if I ever return to the scene most of the stuff I've been on will probably be retired and scrapped anyway!
Always a chance I'll regret binning my spotting books, atlases and such like, but as things stand I don't. Who knows what will happen in years to come, we don't know what will happen tomorrow after all!
fowler9, I did get a recommendation at the time when in Tallinn to go to Hell Hunt but I never went after all. I saw your recommendation when reviewing some older posts on this thread the other day, I walked past the place loads of time but hey ho! I did indeed do the ferry from Tallinn to Helsinki and back, it was a good ride that fair dos.
As for right now, I'm about to finish getting ready for work. One last thought for now though is that I still very occasionally use the railway to get to various places, mostly just for A-B journeys, but when possible I take advantage of the knowledge stored in my memory banks to use the best quality trains I can. So if I fancy a trip to, say, Worcester I ensure I make use of HSTs as well as anything non-170 when possible on WMR! It's kinda like when I returned to my supermarket job, before then all the vast knowledge I had was useless anywhere else but it's proved useful again now I'm back there if that makes sense.
More than likely I'll not be posting too often on here in the foreseeable, but I'll still pop in and read trip reports every so often. I've been enjoying those from The_Train and Skymonster especially, as well as the regular reporters of course!
I missed reading this in October Tech. Just caught up now and I don’t know when you’ll be on next, but it’s good to hear from you.
Sounds like you’ve had some life changing times recently.
Onwards and upwards.![]()
Nice to hear from you again, and I'm glad you're feeling better about yourself. I hope that 2019 is a good year for you.Oh I've been through even more significant changes since my last update on this thread! Just as well really, given how grim the situation was getting, which was even causing my friends to be quite concerned about me. However, that is all far too long a story which I can't be bothered discussing at this time.
What matters with that story is that I found the source of my problems and have got an action plan going. I've sorted one of the issues out, come to peace with another and I'm currently working on my next challenge. Which I'm about to enter Day 9 on, and while it's not gone super smoothly and I'm a bit behind target on it, in the last couple of days I've dug out my usual bag of tricks to get me achieving my challenge. Day 8 of the challenge was the first of the revised target completion date setting, and I actually beat my plan for the day, so I'm very pleased.
Come the end of January 2019, I'm confident that now I have a bloody good reason to pack in the nicotine once and for all, I will do it. The health and financial concerns aren't what's driving me to it, even if they are obvious reasons to do it, and whenever I start struggling I keep reminding myself of my reason to do it. That usually helps a lot, and once the stress of retail in December is over I have no doubt that a month to finish the challenge will be enough.
I've recently also lost the obsessive beer/wine-ticking part of my brain too, it just disappeared during the completion of my first challenge. I tested it last week and initially I wasn't sure but I've now since had some beer as well and I just didn't enjoy it any more. When I see all the posts and ads on social media for beers or wines, they don't have that same appeal to me any more. It's just gone, much like the enthusiasm for the railway did. I suspect much like that, every so often I'll try to return to the scene but it will never last.
Clearly it is time to move on. I'm still compiling lists though, just in this case it's the movies I've seen. That now comes in at a surprising total of 176, as I've been taking advantage of 50p DVDs in CeX a lot lately. Not much else to do on days off with little funds and miserable weather!
I'm slowly working on my competitive streak too, as I'd like to get rid of that. Same for the weird stirring-coffee-3-times thing, which if I can do that will mean eliminating more of the Sheldon Cooper-like personality and that would be nice to do. I'm also trying to get back into reading more, and I even had a cracking middle section to a work of fiction I could have started work on to enable my creative writing side to flourish again. Annoyingly by the time I went for pen and paper I had forgotten the bulk of what I had conjured up!
This is getting a bit too much like a ramble now, so for a final update in 2018 let's make this the last paragraph. Overall, events being what they have been since 26th November 2018 (the day after that, I committed to fixing what was broken in my head), there's a new, revised and improved Juliano coming in 2019. I've made most of the changes already, with a couple of minor and a couple of major ones being worked on, with one change still in the consultation phase, but I am a LOT healthier than I was a few weeks ago. I'm on the way to the Juliano I've dreamed of being for a very long time, I've dealt with a lot in 2018 but 2019 is going to be my year! The next lot of changes are the scariest, but the first of the next set of challenges is what I have determined NEEDS to happen to make Juliano the man he wants to be. He wants to be back to being happy, and there's a great big gaping hole in the way of that being a dream that is realised. There's only one way to plug that hole, now it's all about finding her...
In conclusion, BRING ON 2019!
Well this is an unusual event. I was supposed to be going out for drinks tonight, as I'm working tomorrow night, for my birthday. However, as I'm feeling far too tired and miserable, I've cancelled the plan last minute in favour of staying at home. I plan to continue reading a book, tucked up in bed, and hitting the hay in a bit. I'm not even going to bother touching anything alcoholic.
This is very different to the plan, I had until this afternoon been looking forward to some beers with a couple of mates but no, I've changed my mind, I'm not going out and I don't feel like celebrating. This birthday is all about lazing around at home, maybe with a couple of DVDs tomorrow before work, which is an odd idea but it sounds more enjoyable to me!
LikewiseBelated Birthday wishes mate.
Good to see you are making progress, and belated Happy Birthday!
Have you been hitting the rails at all recently?